Saturday, June 05, 2004

Saturday, June 5, 2004
Waning Moon
Pluto Retrograde
Chiron Retrograde
Venus Retrograde
Neptune Retrograde

Massively depressed this morning, and I have to pull myself out of it. I have a big day ahead of me, between the Belmont (go, Smarty!) and Game 6 of the Stanley Cup Final.

Most of it is financial frustration. A large freelance check is outstanding – it was due awhile ago, and I need it to pay the bills by the 10th. I’ve pursued it and pursued it and pursued it as diplomatically as I can, and I have no idea when it’ll show up. I’m also waiting for a couple of other small – but necessary – checks that are now three months late.

If that’s not enough to join a writer’s union, I don’t know what is! :)

Anyway, made my special devilled eggs – based on the recipe from The New Basics cookbook, but different, and will also bring salmon pate and a bottle of wine to the party. The last thing I feel like doing today is being around people, but that’s the way it is. I have to make sure I don’t take this malaise out on anybody else. It’s no one’s fault. It just is. I hate it when people feel obligated to show up somewhere and punish everyone for it.

I had hoped to do some creative work this morning, but I feel as inspired as wilted lettuce, so I concentrated on business instead.

My biggest wish for today is a dual one – Smarty Jones to win the Belmont, and that no horse, all day, breaks down and has to be euthanized. The last time I was at the Belmont Stakes, in an earlier race, a horse broke down in front of me and was dead. It was horrible. And another horse hobbled around, with the front leg dangling. I still have nightmares about it.

Well, aren’t I cheerful today? Get over yourself. Put on the party clothes, slap on some lipstick, smile and at least try to have a good time!



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