Monday, August 09, 2004

Monday, August 9, 2004
Waning Moon
Pluto Retrograde
Chiron Retrograde
Neptune Retrograde
Uranus Retrograde
Mercury goes Retrograde tonight
Gorgeous, sunny, breezy, pleasant

Yesterday’s show went past in a fog. It was okay, other than the fact that I didn’t know what I was doing and always felt I was in the wrong place. But everyone got on stage in the correct costumes without any major flubs, so it was fine. I had friends attending the show, who were very excited. We drove back together and then went out for dinner. So it was a pleasant day.

And I don’t know how I’m going to face eight shows and two days of day work this week. I’m so exhausted and feel so out of sorts from just one show. The emotional energy it requires at this point is more than I want to give.

Somehow, I have to regain the balance between the writing and the theatre again for this week.

I read a friend’s short story, sent to me for critique. I like it very much, and had only minor suggestions.

I finished Jasper Fforde’s Lost in A Good Book. I love the way his mind works, and the jumps he makes – in every sense of the word. It’s the perfect blend of enjoyment and making me think.

Reading a good book energizes me in a way few other things can. I am not one of those self-involved gits who gets depressed every time I read a good book, moaning, “Why can’t I write like that? Why do I think I’m a writer?” A good book only makes me happier for all of us. Human beings have an insatiable need for stories. There are as room for as many good writers as there are good writers. And, because people’s needs, points of reference and opinions are so different, there is room for many types of writing. I think that’s invigorating, not depressing.

It’s such a lovely day that I hope to take my notebook and go out to a park somewhere and write outside this afternoon. I don’t want to be stuck inside. I’ll be stuck inside the theatre all week – I want to relish my moments of freedom.

Mercury goes retrograde tonight. Since I’ve felt retrograde since the last retrograde and felt like nothing got sorted out, maybe this retrograde will cancel out the last one and I’ll be back on track again.

Yeah, that didn’t make any sense to me, either.

FenCon, a new, fan-run conference, came to my attention through one of the writers’ lists to which I subscribe. I contacted them. I’m going to take an ad out in their program, and send them bookmarks from Angel Hunt for the conference. I can’t go this year – it’s the same weekend I’m covering the fair Health magazine is doing in Newport – but it sounds great. They are terrific to deal with and I hope this is the beginning of a long and productive series for them.

The link is:

in case anyone reading the blog is interested. It’s located in Dallas, Texas.

Yosemite Writers’ Conference, on the other hand, wants nothing to do with me. Different strokes for different folks, I guess. Good thing there are so many different types of writers and fans around.

Wrote an episode of Widow’s Chamber.

Worked on the ad for the FenCon program and the bookmarks. My KIC editor/publisher will let me do a special deal for subscribers that come in via the program ad. So it’s all good.

Dinner at a friend’s house, then back and two more episodes of The Widow’s Chamber. There are some interesting interpersonal dynamics happening on the packet. I’m juggling a lot of characters, but, hopefully, each is distinct enough to stay clear in the reader’s mind. And interesting.

I can’t believe I have to spend an entire week in the theatre. I’m so worried I’ll loose my writing groove again. I don’t know how to adjust my attitude so I can enjoy my time there this week. Most importantly, I don’t want to take out any of my frustration on anyone else.

Did some work on the business plan. I haven’t decided whether or not I will post it here on the blog, or keep it to myself but share bits of hits and misses in the blog. I want to take a few months to perfect the plan.

Got an idea for a story set in Bora Bora. Of course, since I’ve never been to Bora Bora, I can’t really set anything there. Guess I’ll just have to figure out a way to go to Bora Bora to do some research.

Ah, the life of a writer!

Best one there is. The only limitations are the ones you put on yourself.



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