Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Wednesday, December 8, 2004
Waning Moon
Saturn Retrograde
Mercury Retrograde
Sunny and mild

Beautiful, mild day. I had a choice of two trains – one would get me into the city early for the call, one late. I opted for the early call and spent some time in Bryant Park, which is all dressed up with the booths for the Holiday Season. Saw many beautiful objects, but nothing I really wanted.

There was a student program before the matinee today at Rent. They did a game show mock-up, taught the kids some choreography and part of a song – and, most importantly, some of the kids were able to read/perform monologues and essays they wrote. If this is a good cross section of teenagers up and coming, I’d say there’s still hope for us. The pieces were strong, emotional, personal and fearless. Surprisingly, many of the kids questioned don’t want to be performers – they want to be activists, because they feel that there’s too much injustice and intolerance in the world. If their creativity and individuality isn’t tortured out of them by the Status Quo, we actually have a future.

Generation X or Y or whatever the 20-somethings are called seem to be quite useless, but these 13-17 year olds are among the most intelligent, articulate and aware groups of people I’ve met in a long time. They ask questions, they search for answers and they listen instead of merely trying to impose their own sound bytes on everyone around them. They’re not just standing there on a soapbox moaning about the fate of the world in narcissistic or self-pitying ways – they go out and try to change it. Good for them!

These teenagers I never met before gave me the ultimate holiday gift – Hope.

Because cell phones don’t work in the theatre, I missed a call from Wicked asking me to work the matinee. By the time I got the message, it was half hour and they had it covered – although I was more than willing to race uptown and do the show. I will go back in there to do day work on Friday.

This seems to be a pattern – needing me at the last minute on matinee days – so they should think about booking me regularly for that time so it’s not just a scramble. Part of me says, well, just call in on matinee days; however, I’d end up resenting that, because why should I just hang around if there’s not certainty of pay? I have a living to earn, and I need to take the work that comes up, not wait around for a “maybe”. It’s difficult, because a feel a sense of commitment to the show, but I know from experience that I can end up not doing what’s best for my own well-being through that sense of commitment. I have to balance their needs and mine.

The good thing about being in the city over the past two days was that I got to go to some holiday parties. If I accepted every invite, I’d be going to about three parties a day. ‘Tis the season and all that. I’m missing a lot of parties because they’re after the shows – if I’m not in working a show, it means a three hour commute to spend an hour at a party before racing for the last train back out and it’s not worth it to me anymore. If I was still planning to advance in the B’way biz, I’d make sure I showed up at everything. But, transitioning out of the business, I have the freedom not to go.

And, when I lived in Manhattan, I went out a lot. So I don’t feel like I’m missing anything.

Now, to catch up on e-mail and return my attention back to The Widow’s Chamber. If I’m going to lose Friday as a writing day, tomorrow has to be more focused than ever. And some new submissions came through for the KIC mag that need attention.

A fantastic package of information arrived from Iceland, and it’s more intriguing than ever.

I need to create a “Christmas Notebook”. Well, holiday notebook. Yule notebook? Anyway, suddenly I had a burst of ideas of gifts I should have done, could have done, but now don’t have the time to do. And I’ll forget if I don’t write them down. But if I keep a list of – Holiday Inspirations? – then I can go back throughout the year, refresh my memory and pick up the fixings for them as I go about my travels, so when it’s time to site down and do them, I’m ready.



At 6:19 PM, Blogger Lara said...

I'm always in bewildered awe of how you "do it all". You are the epitome of the On Top Of Things Person! :-)


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