Saturday, January 22, 2005

Saturday, January 22, 2005
Waxing Moon
Saturn Retrograde
Freezing, cold, blizzard expected

Hard to get out of bed this morning. Exhausted, and I have a horrible headache – a combination of tension and pre-storm. I’m also hurting physically because of the combination of heavy costumes and working on a raked stage. My neck, shoulders, and back are a mess. Time to call the acupuncturist!

So, today we’re supposed to have a blizzard and maybe up to 24 inches of snow. But they’re making us come to work. And I’m supposed to get home how? And get back to the theatre how? Another reason to leave the business. I am tired of my life being put in danger because producers refuse to cancel shows. I’m not talking about these producers more than others, but producers in general. A couple of years ago, I had to come in for a show during a bad storm, and as soon as my train got into the city, all outgoing trains were cancelled. And when I lived in the city, first starting to work on Saigon, there was a bad storm. We all came in to work, but we had sane producers who sent us home. And, at that time, I only lived ten blocks from the theatre. Everyone was in a great mood, skiing up and down Eighth Avenue. Literally. So, I went home and wrote the first draft of Women With an Edge.

Maybe if I get a few days of being snowed it, I’ll turn around the entire first draft of the script! :)

“The show must go on” is not about nobility; it’s about the greed of those making the profit. Because, of course, if you refuse to come in during something like this, you don’t get hired again. By anyone. Hopefully, I’m moving in the direction where that will no longer be an issue.

That doesn’t solve today.

Of course they’re making no provisions for any of us who get stuck in the city. We’re on our own.

Hopefully, the meteorologists will be wrong as they have been all season – we’ll have some snow but it won’t be that big a deal.

Deal with it step by step.

I was going to bring Ransagh in with me to work on, but I don’t want to risk losing what I have if something goes haywire. I’ll take blank paper, but I’m leaving the sections on which I already worked at home. Maybe I’ll type up some of my notes so I don’t get stuck. But I can’t risk the pages I’ve written getting ruined. Today’s pages I could replace if I had to, but everything up to now? It would be difficult.

Listened to the new CD by my friends Telly Leung and Randy Witherspoon, called Getaway ( I like it a lot. I had a few suggestions and comments (don’t I always) and discussed them with Randy last night – they’re along the same lines he’s thinking. I like the CD a lot, and it’s something I’ll play often. They’re working on some more songs and I can’t wait to hear them. Telly, Randy and I all met on Flower Drum Song a few years ago and the friendship has grown.

Had a good night at the theatre last night. My colleagues are excited by the scriptwriting gig for Hereafter. So am I. I look forward to getting started. I came home to an e-mail from my producer – he spoke to two of my editors, who gave me glowing reviews (love them, which is why I’ve been working with them for years). AND he’s willing to give me that fourth week to polish scripts. I can definitely do a 120 page script and polish it in four weeks.

As soon as he tells me which script he wants to go with first, off I go. He had some questions – good ones, which gives me hope – about how I would handle the mistaken identities in Glamourous Hearts without confusing the listener. And, I even had the answer! I’d thought it through when I wrote it. Fortunately.

Thank you, Debra (Fantasist on my Recommended Reading list to the right) for your kind words. Yes, it’s tearing me apart to want to leave a career I’ve loved so deeply. Leaving the theatre is like breaking up from a long term relationship. It hurts like hell, but sometimes, love alone just isn’t enough. The sensations remind me of relationship breakups. It’s quite strange.

Stopped at Coliseum and treated myself to Thomas Mallon’s Bandbox. I love it. It makes me laugh and think. It’s lively and descriptive and entertaining and moving. Of course I couldn’t wait until the retreat weekend. I had to have it right NOW. Again, I nearly missed my stop coming home because I was so engrossed in it.

Children’s Writer Guide to 2005 also arrived on my doorstep. Hopefully, it will prove useful. I ordered it specifically for the info on working with book packagers. I still want to be one of the Carolyn Keenes writing Nancy Drew! :)

As I’m preparing for the “Writers and Journals” class, I’ve been thinking about the information on Alternative Journals. An Alternative Journal is a journal not of your actual life, but of the life you envision for yourself, as a way of working towards it. It’s a tool of creative visualization. I tried keeping one once, and abandoned it after a matter of days. I realized that the only thing in my life I really want to change is the financial picture. I want to earn more money and have more security (so I’m going further into freelancing – does that make sense? No. Will it work? I’ll MAKE it work). Other than that, I’m mostly living the life I want. There are a few things I’d tweak, but that’s it. Everything else is progressing along. Once I come to terms with the career transition and can stop agonizing about the process, and set up several regular writing assignments to provide the “steady” income, everything else is fine.

It’s rather comforting to realize that, even though I’m doing a career transition, the actual nuts and bolts of my life are positive, good things that I love. There’s not that much I’d change.

Well, today will be what it is. I just want to be prepared. I’m leaving extra food and water for the cats, just in case I can’t get home tonight. I’ll make arrangements with friends so that if I get stuck, I can show up around midnight and crash with them. I’ll take my toothbrush. And hope for the best.

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At 12:14 PM, Blogger Debra Young said...

Alternative Journal--I've not heard of that before; what an intriguing idea. Don't know if it would work well for me, but considering that I'm not where I want to be in any way, I may find it a good thing--the stronger the vision, the stronger the determination.

At 1:10 PM, Blogger Diana said...


I'm very intrigued by the Alternative Journal idea. Also, is this Writers and Journals class online, by any chance?

At 1:19 PM, Blogger Diana said...

I just came across this Thoreau quote in my blog-rounds, and it seemed to tie in with the Alternative Journal idea:

"I learned this, at least, by my experiment; that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. --from the "Conclusion" to Walden"

It seems that this type of journal would be a way to concretely imagine this life which we want to move in the direction of...

Thanks for getting my wheels turning. :)


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