Friday, July 28, 2006
Hot, humid, cloudy
Day 19 of Home Om on Kemmyrk.
Worked on the articles. Will have two of them done and need an extension on the third, mostly because I’m waiting for quotes. And then also have to finish the column.
Actually, I’m going to ask one of my editors if I can flip deadlines – I can give him an article to which he extended a deadline early, and then the other article later, if that works.
Trying to readjust my perspective on The Situation, but it’s difficult not to be crushingly depressed. I have to remember that I do not have to agree to let greedy bastards control my life. Jaguar is one of my totems – try to back me in a corner, and I show my teeth and claws. At this point, I’m metaphorically willing to rip their throats out.
Off to the city today. I’d rather stay home and work, but I also know that I would simply pace and fret. So, the actual motion of going to the city should help shake me out of the writing lethargy and get me back on track. I don’t want to lose momentum on any of the projects, although the paid, contracted work must come first over the weekend.
I’ll have to batten down the hatches and not answer the phone or the door over the weekend. I need to get my work done, and I can’t let The Situation dictate whether or not I do.
I admit that I’m horribly depressed. I’ll find a way out of the pit, but right now, it’s not looking good, on any front.
At least I’m not throwing up anymore.