Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Cloudy and cold
Didn’t get much writing done yesterday, so I have to make up for it today. I’m starting with Tokens and Affections, and then beginning the typing/revisions for “The Merry’s Dalliance”. I have to fix the ending of that one.
Still upset, depressed, and stressed over The Situation: The Sequel. There are always a few people who choose not to respond until past deadline and then pitch a fit because we didn’t wait around until they happened to “get around to it.” Well, here’s a round tuit for you! It’s not that their reasons for not responding are invalid – sometimes life gets in the way. But you can’t put over 100 people’s lives at risk because a couple of people have to deal with other priorities in their lives. That’s why there’s a committee, an organization, so that all the work doesn’t fall on one person.
Work was fine yesterday, and some more dates were booked, which is a good thing before the holidays. The Universe decided to have an interesting character cross my path, who provided some information that was much needed. Don’t mean to sound mysterious, but can’t go into detail.
I have managed to get some reading done over the past few days. I read two Jane Langton mysteries: Murder at Monticello and Dark Nantucket Moon. I enjoy her writing, and she always manages to surprise me.
I was sent a book for review yesterday, which I started, and I’ll probably review over on Kemmyrk, because that’s the most appropriate.
And I need to get started on the Christmas/holiday cards. A batch of packages went out yesterday, and I managed to get my friend A. the belated gift I wanted to get him (although I didn’t wrap it).
Last year at this time, with Saturn retrograde, the Situation had begun. I was at the theatre, prepping clothes, crying because I didn’t know what to do or where to turn or how to get through it and protect my family.
Saturn is the planet of life lessons, so I have to seriously look at both the mistakes and the growth I made last year at this time, and make sure I don’t repeat them.
I started by being too passive. I don’t think I’m too passive in regard to the Situation now. I felt alone; now there’s an entire organization of people working on it, along with the City Council and the State. I’m still having trouble with loyalties and boundaries. And I’m not where I need to be financially. Setting the correct boundaries will help me gain the stamina and energy I need in order to gain the work I need to smooth out the finances. I’ve paid off debt in the past year and am working to clear the whole thing out, which is positive.
Last year, before the Situation hit, I was trotting along at a leisurely pace, in my three year plan. Not pushing too hard, but trying to do steady turtle work. This year, I feel trapped and that I’ve missed something somewhere that would let me take a leap instead of making a transition. I’m also behind in the transition because of the months and months and months I spent on The Situation – which also included enormous amounts of stress, not eating, not sleeping, not being able to concentrate on my work.
So, I’m trying to sort all of this out without getting my ass kicked too badly during this Saturn return. Anybody want to start taking bets? ;)
Most of the morning has been eaten up by the Sequel, and I am now determined to get back to the page. After all, Elmira and Declan are waiting. And Declan’s not been the focus for several chapters, so he’s eager to get back into the mix!
On an aside, I’m going to say, once again that I think the show Studio 60 on the Sunset Strip is brilliant. The acting and the writing is all outstanding, but, as usual, Bradley Whitford’s choices and nuances stand out above all the rest. I can’t get enough of that show.